Fit neatly into little corrugated boxes

dude,

How is training camp going? I can't imagine what you have to endure. I could never make it through all of it. Although, somehow I wish I was there doing it. This summer has taken a turn and become a time to reorganize my life. I have written it off and do not have any thing fun planned.I hope you don't mind that I might seem boring. I won't have any stories of my grand adventures. The best that they might get is that Donnie lost his shorts in the kiddie pool. But. . . there is a greater purpose for all this planning, and that is so that I may have grand adventures in the future with YOU. I may be as poor as the dickens right now, and my life might fit neatly into corrugated boxes and 18 gallon rubbermaid totes, but I hope that all this planning and lack of excitement will lead to some fun times with you.

I have been into that lately, making sacrifices and hoping to reap the benefits later. I think I've put the cart before the horse in previous years. Many of the decisions I made were far too early. I didn't deserve them. I realize this when I have been going through my belongings the past couple of years, to discard; and I look at all the shit I have accumulated, much of which I never really got to use, or at least use it to the potential I planned for it when I got it. For example, my books, I remember thinking about the information I would learn if I got this one book and I would be smarter, and it would look good in my collection. (I got rid of 16 boxes of books yesterday btw!). Or some of the toys I had, I thought of how cool to set up adventures with my friends, or how cool they would look in my room. Alas, none of this did me any good. I didn't invest in the right things. Even my decision to get married and have kids was way too early (obviously), and much of it was based on my stubbornness and the fact that all my friends were doing it kind of mentality. Now much of this is discarded and all I have is the memories (which as you know, are valuable to me). They are pieces of me that are now scattered in fragments, only to live on in stories I tell to you. I can tell you of all the things I was interested in and dreams I had for great adventures. You always listen to me so well. I love you for that.

What is exciting to me is where my life is now, and where it is heading. I have invested in intrinsic matters the last couple of years and building up the treasures of more meaningful value. These things are skills, knowledge, some adventures (Italy, SGC, SPE), and trying to get my head screwed on straight to make good decisions. I hope you don't mind if I am frank when I tell you the most meaningful decision is the one to date you. I want to do everything right now, I have the girl I have always wanted to have and things look bright.

I'm also sorry that I can't afford plane tickets and other accoutrements to go to places like New York or Norway with you. I really really wish I could. I almost hate myself that I can't. And if I get a good job, if I finally have money, will I have time to do these? I sure will make it a priority to do these things. You know that travel and having good experiences are a high priority, and even higher than that is doing them with you. Don't give up on me yet Johanna.

This message was meant to make up for the quickly written one I sent you on July 4. I want to hear stories of what you're doing in Hayward. I bet you are worn out most of the time from the hard workouts. What is the hardest workout you did so far? What is the most fun thing you did so far? Can you send me photos of your cootchie?


The only boring for now,

Don

This is a period of low finances for me. I am struggling just to feed myself. I want to figure out what to do with my life and reorganize my goals. I think I am trying to do too many things at once and that is distracting, although I feel things will pass me by if I don't keep at them. An example might be getting smart and keeping in shape. Both involve some time and they don't have the same things in common. I could get really good at one, if I neglect the other, but I am unwilling to do that. Still, I need to organize my time so as not to waste it. I want to become a successful individual and worthy to be with Jojo.

Today I am selling a bunch of my old toys on ebay. It brings back the memories of when I used to collect them. I remember when I started collecting toys again in 1995. I am glad to move on from this old life I had of collecting junk to a new one that will hopefully be less full of clutter. tomorrow is Helen's birthday.

Tonight I think I hurt my back. I want to keep track of it so I know how long it hurts for.

I also think Mr. H is starting his visit today.

I called Jojo and talked to her tonight. It was a nice talk

Today was boring, except that I got to talk to Jojo on the phone. She called me. That excited me.

I find the kids to be adorable. I enjoy how they want to play with me when they get home. Gabby wanted to sleep in the tent, but I had work to do so couldn't sleep out there with her. She ended up sleeping inside. She wanted me to tell her a story before bed. Donnie wanted me to sing to him and give him a butterfly kiss.